I used to be that way...

I'm reading a book called "100 days of Weight Loss." It's a daily motivator that helps you stay on track with whatever diet or life change you're on. I'm going to be chronicling my thoughts on this blog.

The first chapter talks about past attempts at weight loss and their unsuccessful-ness. My fears are that:

I'll give up.
That I won't look good once I've lost the weight.
That it still won't make a difference in my love life.
That I won't be able to lose weight.

My negative behaviors:
I eat a lot of sweets.
I eat when I'm bored.
I don't drink water.

I used to be fearful, but now I'm going to stand strong and try, and not just try, I will succeed!
I used to eat a lot of sweets, but now I'm going to make sure I eat a balanced diet that includes a little bit of everything.
I used to eat when I was bored, but now I'm going to check myself, and make sure that I'm actually hungry before I eat.
I used to not drink water, but now I'm going to bring my water bottle to work and make sure I drink 120 ounces a day.

Reading of the day: 1 John 1. "If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin. If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives." V.6-10.

A big part of my personality is pride. I hate to admit I'm wrong. However, I feel like God is slowly breaking that down. Just yesterday as I was writing how I "hate when someone does this" to me, I realized that I do that to SO many people, and I realized that I needed to be honest and say so. I am not a perfect person, I do make mistakes. Lord, please help me not only to be honest with myself when I make mistakes, but please help me to be honest and transparent with others when I make mistakes. Help my pride and stubbornness not get in the way of living an honest life and having forgiveness from you. Also, please show what is darkness so that I can live in your light.