Sketchy start...weigh in #1

So, my day started off sketchy. I got up at 8, prepped my DDR, but when I actually went to play it...nothing. It's not showing up on the tv or anything. I think my ps2 isn't hooked up correctly. After knocking out my cable and getting really bitter, I kinda gave up and sat on the couch. But I got up again and did some Zumba. Only 20 minutes, but I was proud of myself for actually doing something instead of just sulking on the couch. This means I need to figure out what's going on tonite so I can do DDR tomorrow. Doing Zumba made me realize how out of shape I was. Ugh. First step is always the hardest I suppose.

So...my weight. Starting weight is 241.2. I've definitely kept some of the weight off that I lost before, but this is not good. I want to lose at least 100 lbs. My goal is 5%...which is 12.06 lbs. Okay, here we go...

Feeling inspired and accomplished

So, after mom helped me with $300 worth of bills, I set to making a new budget. I think I did a realistic and accurate budget for this year. My projected date of paying of my credit cards is the end of 2012. My budget says October 2012, but I didn't account for finance charges, etc., so I'm assuming it'll be a little later than that. It seems like a long time, but, I know I can do it. It was supposed to be 2011 when I did my budget before. I'm not waiting any longer. I want...I need to do this.

I'm excited to start working about tomorrow. I'm volunteering at 9:30, so I gotta wake up a little earlier than I would on a "regular" day, but I want to get off on a good start. Stay tuned tomorrow morning for a...ahem...weigh in. ugh. I'm NOT excited about that. I'm going to try to take my measurements too, although, I'm not sure if the miniature tape measure that I have will make it around my body parts :( sad times. Oh well, one day they will and I will look back to this day and...uh...laugh? Haha I dunno. Anyway, I feel accomplished, excited, and inspired. Not bad...

thankful

I am so thankful for my mom. I was telling her my money woes--I have a lot of bills that I haven't paid. You know how you don't pay one month...nothing happens...so you let it go another, then another, then another? That's what happened to me. I have a phone bill, w/s/g bill, electricity bill, student loan, and cable bill that are all past due. My mom asked me how much I owed...and to be honest, I knew what this meant. I knew that she was going to pay some of it. And, to be honest, I am thankful, but I also feel terrible too.

I get the "sigh, not again...Tiffany being stupid with money" kind of feeling. I don't want to have to rely on my parents when stuff like this happens. To be honest, my reliance has lessened everyday. I remember when I was in school and just starting out that I leaned heavily on their support. And I'm proud to say that I do so less and less as the years go on. To be honest, I don't think I could have had a fresh slate with my new budgeting life without my mom helping me pay it. It makes me want to work harder to know all the money, time, and energy that she's invested to help me :)

I am proud that I didn't ask her to pay my cable or phone bill. Cable was a conscious choice. She shouldn't have to pay my bills at all, but especially not something that I don't need that's purely for entertainment. It didn't feel right. I totally forgot about my phone bill, but I'm glad I did. I feel like I should have to use some of the money that I saved to pay that. It's a consequence of my bad spending choices. And you won't learn unless it hurts. (My mom told me that ;) )

I am so thankful that I have parents who have helped and provided for me all of my life. I'm so thankful that they believe and support me. And I'm so thankful that they have always given me the benefit of the doubt. I could not have asked for better parents than them.