Tuesday, August 17, 2010
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I chose running over poker tonight. Did you hear what I said? I had a chance to play poker (which I love) and instead said my health and running was more important to me. I'm so proud of myself :)
whirlwind week
Oh my goodness so many things are happening this week. Firstly, I found out Tutta Bella was having a "thank you loyal customers" sale and was giving away one free pizza per table. So I went with Adam for lunch...and then again with Alisha & Jen for dinner. Sadly, our plans to run, go swimming, then eat dinner went down the hill to swimming and eating dinner, then just eating dinner and sharing a DELECTABLE tiramisu. Oh my lordy the cream in the tiramisu was to die for. So yummy. I'm glad we were sharing it among the three of us because I would have eaten that whole thing by myself and felt sick afterwards. The nice thing about Tutta Bella is their pizzas are neopolitan style and the crust is super thin and low gluten...I'm sure it's not GOOD for you, but it's lighter than a normal pizza and not loaded with cheese. I left feeling fed instead of fed and bloated. Plus their napoli salad is simply amazing. I think I love it even more than the pizza. Ok, off of food now :)
Today I'm supposed to do running/poker, tomorrow I'm supposed to do bonding time with Bigs, and Thursday I have bonding time with Bec. I'm already exhausted thinking about all the people time. I'm debating on whether or not I should ditch poker today and get the rest and rejuvenation I need. I normally get that on the weekend, but, oh yea, the parents are moving to Hawaii and I was working all week. So, basically I'm tired. My body is tired, I'm not getting enough sleep, and it makes me worried for keeping in shape, running, and just overall feeling good. So, poker might have to go...ugh I hate missing things I love but I'm at a point where I'd rather say no than feel like crap...and I'm not going to say no to the girls :)
Speaking of running, I've been on a bit of hiatus, and I'm pretty sure I'm ready to go again. I definitely was not going to run in the 90 degree heat, and I'm kinda nervous about the 80 degree heat today...but I should at least go and try. I've decided to try to run the 2 miles, and if I can't do it, just start with week 6, day two (1 mile, walk 1/4 of a mile, run 1 mile) and try to work up from there. I realize that my body is doing some amazing things, but some things it's not ready for and I just gotta accept that and continue to push it but not force it...or I'll hurt myself. And I can't be so hard on myself and rigid that I feel like a failure instead of the success that I am and WILL be. I'm so stoked for this 5k and maybe I'll do the other one in October. Goals goals goals!
I can't wait to rest and relax this weekend and recharge my batteries. Summer is almost over (yay!) and I'm looking forward to my favorite season with cool air, layering(cardigans yay!), and pretty colors. Okie doke, gotta go wash my hair.
p.s. Shakira (my parent's cat that I'm keeping for the next 3 years) keeps waking me up in the early morning. I'm tempted to lock her out of my room, but the meowing might wake me up anyway. Also, I was able to wrap a normal towel (not one of those larger towels or bathsheets) around my body without any gaps..and I can see my clavicles. I love all these little signs that my life is changing significantly :)
Today I'm supposed to do running/poker, tomorrow I'm supposed to do bonding time with Bigs, and Thursday I have bonding time with Bec. I'm already exhausted thinking about all the people time. I'm debating on whether or not I should ditch poker today and get the rest and rejuvenation I need. I normally get that on the weekend, but, oh yea, the parents are moving to Hawaii and I was working all week. So, basically I'm tired. My body is tired, I'm not getting enough sleep, and it makes me worried for keeping in shape, running, and just overall feeling good. So, poker might have to go...ugh I hate missing things I love but I'm at a point where I'd rather say no than feel like crap...and I'm not going to say no to the girls :)
Speaking of running, I've been on a bit of hiatus, and I'm pretty sure I'm ready to go again. I definitely was not going to run in the 90 degree heat, and I'm kinda nervous about the 80 degree heat today...but I should at least go and try. I've decided to try to run the 2 miles, and if I can't do it, just start with week 6, day two (1 mile, walk 1/4 of a mile, run 1 mile) and try to work up from there. I realize that my body is doing some amazing things, but some things it's not ready for and I just gotta accept that and continue to push it but not force it...or I'll hurt myself. And I can't be so hard on myself and rigid that I feel like a failure instead of the success that I am and WILL be. I'm so stoked for this 5k and maybe I'll do the other one in October. Goals goals goals!
I can't wait to rest and relax this weekend and recharge my batteries. Summer is almost over (yay!) and I'm looking forward to my favorite season with cool air, layering(cardigans yay!), and pretty colors. Okie doke, gotta go wash my hair.
p.s. Shakira (my parent's cat that I'm keeping for the next 3 years) keeps waking me up in the early morning. I'm tempted to lock her out of my room, but the meowing might wake me up anyway. Also, I was able to wrap a normal towel (not one of those larger towels or bathsheets) around my body without any gaps..and I can see my clavicles. I love all these little signs that my life is changing significantly :)
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Where I am vs. where I was
I've been feeling very introspective lately, and when I say lately I mean this weekend, and when I say this weekend I mean pretty much today. It's been interesting helping my parents pack up and move, and when I say interesting, I mean exhausting, hilarious, fun, and bittersweet. I can't believe they're leaving me for the beautiful beaches of Hawaii, but I'm also excited to be joining them every so often there as well.
When I look at my mindset, and where I was last year vs. this year, I'm amazed. I'm amazed at the growth, the determination, the attitude change, the new healthy lifestyle...I'm amazed at all of it. Literally a year ago I was writing about what I wanted for my job at the club and how I wanted to change lives and how I was excited about where this year was going to take me (after thinking that maybe I was going to pick up and move), and here I am with a new job, in a better position to impact and love and change lives. God is so good.
I'm amazed at not only what I've learned, but also how I've taken what I've learned and DONE something with it. I've learned that I'm stronger that I thought I was. I've learned that I'm not a quitter. I've learned that fear is not something that has to live in me, and in fact that I hold it's eviction notice in my hand . I've learned that I'm a runner. I've learned that I have more support than I ever could have imagined. I've learned that I love my family more than words can say and that I have, quite possibly, the best family in the world. No joke. I've relearned my love of reading. I've learned that I'm a pretty damn good poker player. I've learned that I like to take risks. I've learned that my primary love language is TIME and that spending time with the people I love is more important to me than hugs, kind words, cleaning my dishes, or gifts. Oh man I've learned so much--I could fill a page...but the most important things I've learned, are that I love myself, I love the life I have been given, and I want to LIVE my life in the way it was meant to be lived.
So far, this "year of me" has taught me how I've undervalued, and underestimated myself, and I will never do that again. I will never fail to try because I think I can't do it ever again. I will never let other people make decisions about who I should be or what I want. Eesh I'm so proud and at peace but I'm also nervous and anticipatory. I have accomplished so much, and I KNOW I can do more. I can't stop now, and I will "have life in every word to the extent that it's absurd."
So here's to life, and where it takes us. I wrote this almost a year ago, and I think it's appropriate to quote now:
Life as of now is never how (I) would have expected it. But it's good, and it's exceeded my expectations in so many ways. Thank you Jesus, for all that you've done.
When I look at my mindset, and where I was last year vs. this year, I'm amazed. I'm amazed at the growth, the determination, the attitude change, the new healthy lifestyle...I'm amazed at all of it. Literally a year ago I was writing about what I wanted for my job at the club and how I wanted to change lives and how I was excited about where this year was going to take me (after thinking that maybe I was going to pick up and move), and here I am with a new job, in a better position to impact and love and change lives. God is so good.
I'm amazed at not only what I've learned, but also how I've taken what I've learned and DONE something with it. I've learned that I'm stronger that I thought I was. I've learned that I'm not a quitter. I've learned that fear is not something that has to live in me, and in fact that I hold it's eviction notice in my hand . I've learned that I'm a runner. I've learned that I have more support than I ever could have imagined. I've learned that I love my family more than words can say and that I have, quite possibly, the best family in the world. No joke. I've relearned my love of reading. I've learned that I'm a pretty damn good poker player. I've learned that I like to take risks. I've learned that my primary love language is TIME and that spending time with the people I love is more important to me than hugs, kind words, cleaning my dishes, or gifts. Oh man I've learned so much--I could fill a page...but the most important things I've learned, are that I love myself, I love the life I have been given, and I want to LIVE my life in the way it was meant to be lived.
So far, this "year of me" has taught me how I've undervalued, and underestimated myself, and I will never do that again. I will never fail to try because I think I can't do it ever again. I will never let other people make decisions about who I should be or what I want. Eesh I'm so proud and at peace but I'm also nervous and anticipatory. I have accomplished so much, and I KNOW I can do more. I can't stop now, and I will "have life in every word to the extent that it's absurd."
So here's to life, and where it takes us. I wrote this almost a year ago, and I think it's appropriate to quote now:
Life as of now is never how (I) would have expected it. But it's good, and it's exceeded my expectations in so many ways. Thank you Jesus, for all that you've done.
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