I just helped my BFF move into her brand spanking new apartment--in my building! I am always on the search for something new, something different, something that will somehow change my life for the better. Whether this something is a new apartment, new job, new hobby, new friend, etc...I seem to always be on the search--never truly satisfied with what I have. I'm realizing that while that desire for "something new" can bring exciting and wonderful things into my life, it can also lead me into a dark path. Basically a path that leaves me unsatisfied, and never realizing how GOOD I have it.
I've been looking for a new job about 6 months after I got the job at the Club...and I've been here for 4 years since, becoming unsatisfied, searching for something new, not willing to take a risk, realizing how good I have it, basking in that for a couple of weeks, then the boredom sets in and I'm looking all over again. I do the same thing with most of the stuff in my life. Funny thing is, is that once I've found something that I truly love--which fits my expectations to a "t" I stop. I look around my apartment, and all of the furniture is perfect. I wouldn't change a thing. I have no need for anything else because I searched and found exactly what I was looking for.
I don't think my search for amazing and wonderful clothes will ever stop. :) I will forever and always be a clothes-a-holic and I think that I've gotten THAT spending habit pretty under control.
But back to the something new. I guess I had a moment of "ah, I want a brand new apartment with new carpet, repainted, etc..." and then I helped my friend move, and I realize how much hard work it is. How expensive it is. How everything seems unfinished until you get exactly what you want. How HARD it was to wait and search and be disappointed and at the end of the move I was tired. Tired of thinking about where to put this, how to put that in the truck, where everything was going to go, and moving heavy stuff.
Then I walked into my apartment. My apartment has every single thing that I've wanted in it. It has that killer couch I found on craiglist, that trunk coffee table, that mirror/coat hanger that I got for 5 bucks at goodwill, that table I bought from that woman in the trailer...etc. etc. etc. and I realize how GOOD I have it. How I've been there, and while it's fun and exciting, it's also hard work and I don't want all that work right now. I want to come home to my finished, perfectly wonderful apartment that I've made into a home and rest and relax. I've lived in this apartment for 2 years...longer than I've lived anywhere, and I am so happy to have this place as my own.
So here's to being settled. Here's to having a fantastic job, with wonderful people that I mostly get along with. Here's to being able to walk to work, and living in a amazing city with everything at my fingertips. Here's to the comforts of home, and here's to the hard work I put into it for these past couple of years. I'm excited for new adventures, and fullness of life, but I am also very thankful for what I have, and for the happiness that has been given to me. God is good :)
