still sick

So, I'd like to spare everyone details but you know I can't :) I've had nausea and diarrhea for the past 2 or 3 days. That, plus getting off my period, has resulted in like a 6lb weight loss. So I guess being sick is worth something eh? Let's hope I can maintain it :) And let's hope I feel better...ugh.

sick :/

I went home sick yesterday from work. I don't know if it's the 90+ degree weather and not enough hydration, or a stomach bug, but I felt like crapola. About 100 oz of water, cold packs, a fan on my body, and tons of sleep later...I'm feeling better. Although my body seems to still be expelling whatever virus/nastiness I had. The good news is, is that I feel well enough to go back to work. The bad news? I wasn't able to do my c25k training yesterday...which was probably a blessing in disguise seeing as how it was 89 degrees. Ah well. I'm gonna try to pick it back up this weekend if it's not too hot. I think I'm completely over my cold...here's to being healthy all around!

Small Wins

Phew. Still stoked that I finished day 1 of my training yesterday. My body doesn't even really feel sore...so I think it's adjusting to running pretty well. I ended up hanging out with my friend Manda after work. We went to the Cheesecake Factory (how the hell does a salad have 1400 calories? seriously??) and then went to see Robin Hood which I actually liked :) We did stay up til 2am (ugh) so I didn't get up and work out. I am going to do it after work though, and then going to meet some new ladies to start a book club. I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I hope it goes well.

Today the book talked about celebrating small wins. Sometimes we get caught up in the slip ups we had in the day--such as, getting off track with calories, not exercising, feeling crappy at work, etc--and forget the many good things that actually happened during the day. The book says to "look at your actions" and remember all the things you did well during the day. "These include any of your efforts that make you feel more successful, happy, healthy or peaceful." 164  I like that it's once again a reminder to remember your small victories.  Yesterday, some of the kids were just...grating on my nerves, and I know I lost my temper one time with a kid. But, we had a great water balloon toss event, had a slammin' rotation, and did well despite the fact we had no access to the gym. Plus, of course, my run.  Anyway, I'm kind of the type who generally focuses on the positive and shuns the negative (when it comes to me and encouraging myself), so I'm going to use this as a reminder to keep remembering those small wins in my life :)  Ok, gotta get dressed and be at work by 9. eesh!

week 2 day 1 of c25k training!

I just completed my first day of week two training. 20 minutes of running for 1.5 minutes, and walking for 2 minutes. I had some hangups--some of my songs not working (grrrrr!) my shoes coming untied, and the 90 degree weather--ok maybe 80...but other than that, it went pretty well. Things NOT to do before a run? Eat lasagna. I was about 1/4 of the way though a smart ones lasagna and I was like, "hell no what am I doing?" I was like michael from the office eating pasta before my run...dumb.  So, at my last bout of running, I almost threw up, like seriously I had to concentrate on keeping the damn lasagna down. I did, and I'm happy that I did the run. On Thursday? I need to eat an apple and a bit o'turkey around 4 to prep myself, and drink at least 64 ounces of water during the day, and I think I'll be even better prepared. Woohoo! I'm glad I finished and I ran the whole time I was supposed to. Yay me :)

weigh in

of course I didn't weigh myself in yesterday with all of the getting to work straight from my parent's madness. With my period bloat, plus the eating this weekend, I thought for sure I would see a plus on that scale, but there is a slight dip--221.6. Woo-.4 of a pound! I'll take it! Hopefully next week will reflect the running of this week and hopefully the healthier eating. alrighty, back to figuring out my ipod playlist :)

Watch for rainbows

Mmmmk. So my week was totally thrown off my fourth of july. I had to bus it to work from my parent's house yesterday morning, and then, I ended up going to my bff's to play with the babies and take them to the park. Needless to say, I didn't get home until 11-something and did not get my workout in. Although, push a stroller to the park and then carrying a 9 month old back might be considered somewhat of a workout...not a 500 calorie burning one but I'll take it I guess :) Today is my first day of week 2 training! I am...partly excited partly terrified. I know I can do it, I just am exhausted today and don't want it to affect my run :/ Hopefully I can drink enough water, get enough protein and do what I need to do.

Today the book talked about those days that are all over kinda sucky. The weather is dreary, people at work are negative, etc., etc., so you might want to go to food to brighten up your day. The author says to look for "rainbows" like your family is safe, you have fluffy pillows to sleep on, etc., Basically look at the blessings in life instead of the negatives you see before you.  Which is good advice. But, I have nothing else to say on the matter.

I'm hanging out with a friend of mine tonite--gonna get dinner and see a movie. Then I have a meeting with my new book club (!) tomorrow night. Busy, busy week. Hopefully I'll get some rest sometime soon and catch up on sleep.

All or nothing

Again! A late at night post :) Accomplished several things today. One, made some not so awesome eating choices--ribs, brownies, general 4th of July shenanigans--however I didn't eat as much as I normally would have. So that in itself is a victory. I need to relearn the "try a little bit and stop" thing :) I completed my third day of running...so week 1 is done. I have to say the third day was not that bad. In fact, I thought the first couple of days were harder so here's to hoping running gets easier as I go along. I cannot wait until that day that I'm running a full mile. It's going to be pretty amazing I have to say. It's hard to imagine, but I know I can do it. I'm managing to get to bed at a decent hour to wake up early to get back to Seattle tomorrow as well. So, I shall work out and do my exercising tomorrow afternoon after work.

Today the book talked about perfectionists and their "all or nothing" way of thinking/being. If they can't do it right, they're not going to do it at all. And with dieting/lifestyle changes...that's kind of dangerous. I know that when I first thought about dieting, I thought, "oh I can't give up bacon or candy or ____" and it would prevent me from starting. Or I'd start and mess up and stop because I wasn't able to rise to the impossible standards I gave myself. Once I learned that my way of changing my life was not about deprivation but moderation, it helped so much. The book suggests instead of striving for perfection, you should strive for excellence, which should decrease the "pressure."

I think for me, the combination of not depriving myself and striving for excellence is great. If I don't deprive myself but also don't strive for excellence, then I'll most likely go overboard. If I strive for excellence at the same time, I'll be more likely to question my decision to take a 3rd brownie, think about the consequences of my actions, and be able to make a more informed, controlled decision. It's so nice being able to live a life of fullness and freedom in ALL things including food :) Happy 4th of July everyone!

"But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions--it is by grace you have been saved." Eph. 2:4-5

It's always good to have this reminder that it's not my goodness, my personality, my thinness (or lack thereof), my kind gestures, volunteering, etc. that make Jesus love me. He loved me (and still loves me) when I was (and am) imperfect. He loved me despite the fact that I had nothing to offer him, nothing good to give him that he didn't already have.  He continually, every day, even when I don't ask for it breathes new life into me--literally and figuratively--and I am so thankful for his goodness. I'm so thankful that he made himself known to me, because I don't know where I would be without him. I'm very blessed, and so glad for the freedom from hopelessness, depression, etc. that he has given me, and that is free for anyone. God is good. Immensely, eternally, amazingly good.