It's 10pm, but I still wanted to get my blogging in. Keeps me accountable :) It's never too late right? Today, I had the perfect lazy day. Got up and washed/straightened my hair, went for a massage, did a bit o'shopping, came home and took and nap, and have been putzing around the house the rest of the day. Resting, and watching cable. It's nice having a lazy day, but I need to reiterate again that I love not having cable. Other exciting news? I'm joining a book club. Found this girl who was trying to organize one, and she found 5 other people who were interested. So hopefully this thing gets off the ground. I love meeting new people :)
Today the book talked about sneak eating--eating really well around other people, but then going home and chowing down on a dessert or leftover cookies. "Maybe you've tried telling yourself that sneaking food doesn't matter that much. But behind this secret lies a huge range of emotions such as anger, resentment, and fear." pg 158. I remember I used to eat in my room alot, or eat half of my dinner from the restaurant in front of my friends and then down it as soon as I got home. I think I was full but I always thought that "super full" was what I needed to fill...loneliness? fear? I don't know. But I know I used to do it. With my new healthy eating plan, it's easy not to feel ashamed because I know that I have control over my food choices, and can eat what I want in moderation. It takes all the mystery and uber desire out of food. :)
Tomorrow we're BBQing. I'm excited. And as a group we're going to the lake..so day 3 of c25k. I'm excited! Okie dokie, time to set up the Settler's board!
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
It's too hard!
I had an interesting start to my day as I didn't go to bed on time last night...in fact, I went to bed at 2am! At midnight I was exhausted then got pulled in to a tv show. Can I just say that I am SO GLAD I canceled my cable? Best decision of my life! Anyway, then I slept off and on until about 9. I made some not so good food choices this morning...mostly in the quantity (had a big bowl of fruit loops--damn that sugary cereal I love it so much!, a salad--weird I know, a small amount of leftover calamari--stranger and stranger, and some toast with blackberry jam and a bit o butter). Yea, could have done without the fruit loops and calamari, but I should have just stopped with the first part. I made the choice, and am now choosing to get over it and continue with my plans for the day. Which include going to the track with my mother dearest so I can do my next day of 5k training, and then giving myself a pedicure, going for a massage, and maybe shopping. Ok, definitely taking a stop at Ross :) Oh yea, I'm on vacation starting last night!
Today the book talked about dieting/changing your lifestyle being hard. That whole "I'm starting today!" then being derailed by one thing or another, and then getting frustrated because it's so damn hard. And you know what? The book said...yep...it is. It's hard to change your life. It's hard to rearrange you day, take hold of your psychological issues with food as well as your appetites. It's hard to commit to exercising everyday and training for a 5k. Hell yea it's hard. But we've all had to face hard challenges in our lives...and we've gotten through them. "So instead of caving in on your diet because it feels too hard, buck up and tell yourself: 'Of course it's hard. But I've done a lot of difficult things in my life, and this isn't any different. I know that I can do hard things!'" pg 157 I think sometimes when we've been in this weight loss thing, especially when we're reading and watching what other people are doing, we forget that it is hard. We see people shedding pounds, and think "oh it seems easy for them, it should be easy for me." But everyone has their struggles. Everyone has something about weight loss and getting healthy that is hard for them. We just have to remember when it gets hard, to use each other as a support system instead of a a comparison system :)
Today the book talked about dieting/changing your lifestyle being hard. That whole "I'm starting today!" then being derailed by one thing or another, and then getting frustrated because it's so damn hard. And you know what? The book said...yep...it is. It's hard to change your life. It's hard to rearrange you day, take hold of your psychological issues with food as well as your appetites. It's hard to commit to exercising everyday and training for a 5k. Hell yea it's hard. But we've all had to face hard challenges in our lives...and we've gotten through them. "So instead of caving in on your diet because it feels too hard, buck up and tell yourself: 'Of course it's hard. But I've done a lot of difficult things in my life, and this isn't any different. I know that I can do hard things!'" pg 157 I think sometimes when we've been in this weight loss thing, especially when we're reading and watching what other people are doing, we forget that it is hard. We see people shedding pounds, and think "oh it seems easy for them, it should be easy for me." But everyone has their struggles. Everyone has something about weight loss and getting healthy that is hard for them. We just have to remember when it gets hard, to use each other as a support system instead of a a comparison system :)
Thursday, July 1, 2010
small victory
I just pooped and magically 1 lb was gone from the scale. Ok, ok, I know it's kinda gross but you gotta celebrate small victories right? Right? Yes. :)
No Good or Bad
So I decided that I'm not going to worry about the scale's numbers. I was thinking about it, and I generally gain about 1-3lbs of water weight when I'm pmsing, and this week, I've stayed at 222 so, it must mean that I've lost a little since I haven't gained right? Right. hopefully :) Like I said before, I'm not going to let it discourage me. I am free to obsess a little about it though haha.
Today the book talked about not making food a moral issue and using works like good and bad. You shouldn't say, "I was bad today and ate five cupcakes." It used the example of carrots being a good food and brownies being a bad food. What makes them good and bad? Nothing really...it's just a choice you make. So the author says to once again, take control of your food choices and stop "moralizing" food by using vocabulary like cheating, good, or bad. It's hard, because I always...feel bad when I eat food that's not good for me. Yesterday I was craving salt like a mofo, and was munching on chips, while mentally calculating the calories I was consuming. I felt a little bad, but I think KNOWING that I was going to track the calories and being aware of what I was doing made me feel less guilty, and more of the mindset "Hey, I wanted the chips. Maybe not the best choice to have them sitting next to me and munching. But I did it." And I put the chips away from me in the pass through after that. When you boil it down to choices, there still are some "ugh" feelings there, but you definitely don't feel as hopeless and obsessive about it. Which, is nice I gotta say :)
"Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:5-7
This verse always sticks out to me, especially because I have issues with anxiety and worrying about EVERYTHING. Worry about my life, worrying about my future, worrying about my job, my family, my relationships. Goodness. The biggest thing I worry about is my future, and in that worry, I tend to plan a lot. I'll try to "make something of it" and map it out. This has happened most recently when I've decided to do a MPA/Peace Corps stint. And as I've gotten control of my life and started "living it to the fullest," I've realized that I just need to live my life, and be happy and content, and as I live, the opportunities and what makes sense for me to move on to next WILL come. I have to be open to it, and I have to be living, but that's it. If I present my worries about my future to God, he will not only give me peace about it, he'll guide my way and erase any anxiety on my part about how to get there. He'll help slowly, but surely, get me there. He's done it all of my life, and I'm sure he'll do it again.
Today the book talked about not making food a moral issue and using works like good and bad. You shouldn't say, "I was bad today and ate five cupcakes." It used the example of carrots being a good food and brownies being a bad food. What makes them good and bad? Nothing really...it's just a choice you make. So the author says to once again, take control of your food choices and stop "moralizing" food by using vocabulary like cheating, good, or bad. It's hard, because I always...feel bad when I eat food that's not good for me. Yesterday I was craving salt like a mofo, and was munching on chips, while mentally calculating the calories I was consuming. I felt a little bad, but I think KNOWING that I was going to track the calories and being aware of what I was doing made me feel less guilty, and more of the mindset "Hey, I wanted the chips. Maybe not the best choice to have them sitting next to me and munching. But I did it." And I put the chips away from me in the pass through after that. When you boil it down to choices, there still are some "ugh" feelings there, but you definitely don't feel as hopeless and obsessive about it. Which, is nice I gotta say :)
"Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:5-7
This verse always sticks out to me, especially because I have issues with anxiety and worrying about EVERYTHING. Worry about my life, worrying about my future, worrying about my job, my family, my relationships. Goodness. The biggest thing I worry about is my future, and in that worry, I tend to plan a lot. I'll try to "make something of it" and map it out. This has happened most recently when I've decided to do a MPA/Peace Corps stint. And as I've gotten control of my life and started "living it to the fullest," I've realized that I just need to live my life, and be happy and content, and as I live, the opportunities and what makes sense for me to move on to next WILL come. I have to be open to it, and I have to be living, but that's it. If I present my worries about my future to God, he will not only give me peace about it, he'll guide my way and erase any anxiety on my part about how to get there. He'll help slowly, but surely, get me there. He's done it all of my life, and I'm sure he'll do it again.
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I've been weighing myself everyday and usually, I'll see the number move on the scale. It hasn't moved once for me this week! Argh. I'm wondering if I'm not getting the right type of nutrients, eating enough calories, or what. The biggest contributor, could be, the fact that I'm pmsing and retaining water. Which, is probably why it's been so hard to resist tasty treats like chips and cookies (resisted cookies successfully yesterday...chips...not so much). Whatever it is, I'm not giving up. I'm going to keep adjusting and doing WHATEVER I can to get the pounds off.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
No Cheating Allowed
Day three of my new start. Besides the scary dream, I'm feeling really good. Life is good, and now that I'm taking control of my life and trying to live it to it's fullest, it seems as if fullness is coming to it even more :) New friends, old friend, new goals, old goals, new life! It's good.
Today the book talked about the phrase "I cheated on my diet today." It said don't use the phrase, because it indicates that you are not in charge, but the food is. "The truth is, you can't cheat with food! It's impossible. The word cheat refers to something illegal or immoral, and food is neither of these. You do not have some kind of moral or character defect just because you ate a cookie." pg.150. I couldn't have said it better myself :) It's funny because they say to use the words that we tell the kids everyday--choice/choose. "I chose to eat that cookie." "I made some lousy choices today." It doesn't mean that you don't regret it, but it just reminds you that you have the power, and that you can chose to do different. We make choices every day, sometimes with limited options, but that's life, and we have to make do with the options we have, and own up to the choices we make. I like that idea. I have the power, food does not. I make the choice, the food does not choose me. I am in control, not the Oreos or Chips :) Good read today.
"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord...Only let us live up to what we have already attained..."Phil 3:8a,16
I did a real hatchet job on these verses/chapter but whatev. As I grow older, I realize more and more how good God is and how he has given me all the amazing things in my life. He has guided me on the path that I'm on now, and even when I don't acknowledge him, he's still good to me. I've been far from him. I'm compartmentalized my life and only let him have parts of me. I've been hot then cold, faithful, then wandering. But he has always been faithful, always been good. He's like the anchor to my restless soul. And I love him. Everything compared to him is nothing, and I really hope that I really, really, really get that as I get older.
I really like the second part...living up to what we've already attained. We already have his favor. We have salvation, and the wonderful promise of him by our side and life to the fullest...so let's live it. That's kinda along the same lines as what I've been saying to myself the past couple of days. I need to live it. I need to open myself up and breathe it and accept the life (the goodness of it all) that he has given. It's so good if I'll just...start living. God, is good :)
Today the book talked about the phrase "I cheated on my diet today." It said don't use the phrase, because it indicates that you are not in charge, but the food is. "The truth is, you can't cheat with food! It's impossible. The word cheat refers to something illegal or immoral, and food is neither of these. You do not have some kind of moral or character defect just because you ate a cookie." pg.150. I couldn't have said it better myself :) It's funny because they say to use the words that we tell the kids everyday--choice/choose. "I chose to eat that cookie." "I made some lousy choices today." It doesn't mean that you don't regret it, but it just reminds you that you have the power, and that you can chose to do different. We make choices every day, sometimes with limited options, but that's life, and we have to make do with the options we have, and own up to the choices we make. I like that idea. I have the power, food does not. I make the choice, the food does not choose me. I am in control, not the Oreos or Chips :) Good read today.
"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord...Only let us live up to what we have already attained..."Phil 3:8a,16
I did a real hatchet job on these verses/chapter but whatev. As I grow older, I realize more and more how good God is and how he has given me all the amazing things in my life. He has guided me on the path that I'm on now, and even when I don't acknowledge him, he's still good to me. I've been far from him. I'm compartmentalized my life and only let him have parts of me. I've been hot then cold, faithful, then wandering. But he has always been faithful, always been good. He's like the anchor to my restless soul. And I love him. Everything compared to him is nothing, and I really hope that I really, really, really get that as I get older.
I really like the second part...living up to what we've already attained. We already have his favor. We have salvation, and the wonderful promise of him by our side and life to the fullest...so let's live it. That's kinda along the same lines as what I've been saying to myself the past couple of days. I need to live it. I need to open myself up and breathe it and accept the life (the goodness of it all) that he has given. It's so good if I'll just...start living. God, is good :)
Crazy dream!
Ok, I was forced awake at 6am by a terrible dream! The beginning wasn't so bad, but in the end, I was in an elevator with several teens, and right when it started, the elevator made and noise and went all wonky. Then, it started to drop, the numbers started to flash, and it was dropping fast and steady towards an unknown fate. Then, it would slow, and we would sigh in relief, and then we'd start dropping again! Finally after a couple of times I was like "push the emergency button, pull the handle!" but all of these things only stopped the car temporarily, it would start again and stop after we pushed the button. Finally, somehow the boys got the doors open, and were running out (not sure how they ran UP the elevator shaft but whatever) and I screamed up to them "What if another one comes down?!?!" And then I was wrenched out of my dream, awake, and saying w.t.f. What a crazy dream. Not sure if it actually means anything, but as of now I'm staying away from elevators.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
5K Race anybody?!?
I'm pretty sure I'm going to sign up for the Aflac Iron Girl 5k Run/Walk. Super excited to have this goal. If anybody wants to join me, hit me up :)
http://www.irongirl.com/Events/Seattle.htm
http://www.irongirl.com/Events/Seattle.htm
Day one done!
Did my first day of training for the 5k. I did pretty good...although my face was still beet red by the time I got back to the Club. I'm super excited to continue this. I made sure I had all my workout clothes so I could just go after work, and I have the BEST program to help me keep track of the intervals for running and walking. It uses your own songs, and it dings when it's time to walk/run. It's...amazing. Love it. Anyway, I'm proud of myself and can't wait to keep on going :)
I had a "pause"
I was up today at 6:00 (ok 6:15) doing unglamorous tasks such as sorting and washing laundry. I don't think I've done any laundry since DC and it's caught up with me :) I still need to finish putting up some books and finishing up my rearranged apartment...I just was so tired yesterday coming home from work. I already am feeling better starting up my plan again. Even though I stumbled (or had a pause) yesterday during the mid afternoon, I felt more active, in a better mood, and overall happy about life. The tired that I felt...it was a full, satisfied day tired. Not a run down, I'm always tired kind of thing. There's a difference--I've been feeling that run down tired feeling for the past couple of months :)
Today the book piggybacked on yesterday's reading about using more positive language when you mess up or make a mistake on your dieting plan. They recommend saying to yourself "I had a pause." Which, sounds kind of awkward to me. For some reason I associate it with "I had a period." I have no idea why, but I do. Haha. Anyway! I like the analogy the author used of hiking a mountain, and because you get tired and thirsty, you pause, resting and drinking water, and then get up to start again. If you did this, you wouldn't berate yourself for pausing and then give up. You also would beat yourself up and make yourself restart back a few hundred paces. You just continue. The author encourages you to view slip ups as this kind of pause. "If you slip up on your diet plan, simply say, 'I had a brief pause, but now I'm back on track."
Good little chapter :)
"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others." Phil 2:3-4
Oh, to live a life in which I don't do something for selfish reasons or vanity. I have a lot of self confidence at times...which...at other inconvenient times...turns into vanity. The fact that I can't not check myself out in a mirrored/glass object when I walk past is partly because I want to make sure I still look right, and partly because I am like "damn, you're still cute." Haha. But in all seriousness...how many times do I consider others better than myself? Gosh...how many times do I consider myself better than others? More often than not I feel like I look at a situation or person and judge it/him/her, rather than try to understand it and come to a sensible conclusion about it.
And I think that I'm a pretty non-judgmental person at times, especially when it comes to people I don't know...but the criticism and the inability to recognize people's good points and why I liked them in the first place comes into play when I've known someone awhile...just long enough for them to irritate me :) I'm learning to be more graceful with my friends, with my coworkers (lord help me!), and with my family. To be honest, my family is easy. I don't know if God granted me that grace awhile ago, or what. But I love them so much that I don't know if I can even hold a grudge at this point :)
Anyway, I'm going to think about that...looking not only to my interests...but to others as well. How can I help further this person's goals? How can I make them feel like family? How can I be more loving? etc. We'll see how this goes. I'm an ever imperfect work in progress :)
Today the book piggybacked on yesterday's reading about using more positive language when you mess up or make a mistake on your dieting plan. They recommend saying to yourself "I had a pause." Which, sounds kind of awkward to me. For some reason I associate it with "I had a period." I have no idea why, but I do. Haha. Anyway! I like the analogy the author used of hiking a mountain, and because you get tired and thirsty, you pause, resting and drinking water, and then get up to start again. If you did this, you wouldn't berate yourself for pausing and then give up. You also would beat yourself up and make yourself restart back a few hundred paces. You just continue. The author encourages you to view slip ups as this kind of pause. "If you slip up on your diet plan, simply say, 'I had a brief pause, but now I'm back on track."
Good little chapter :)
"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others." Phil 2:3-4
Oh, to live a life in which I don't do something for selfish reasons or vanity. I have a lot of self confidence at times...which...at other inconvenient times...turns into vanity. The fact that I can't not check myself out in a mirrored/glass object when I walk past is partly because I want to make sure I still look right, and partly because I am like "damn, you're still cute." Haha. But in all seriousness...how many times do I consider others better than myself? Gosh...how many times do I consider myself better than others? More often than not I feel like I look at a situation or person and judge it/him/her, rather than try to understand it and come to a sensible conclusion about it.
And I think that I'm a pretty non-judgmental person at times, especially when it comes to people I don't know...but the criticism and the inability to recognize people's good points and why I liked them in the first place comes into play when I've known someone awhile...just long enough for them to irritate me :) I'm learning to be more graceful with my friends, with my coworkers (lord help me!), and with my family. To be honest, my family is easy. I don't know if God granted me that grace awhile ago, or what. But I love them so much that I don't know if I can even hold a grudge at this point :)
Anyway, I'm going to think about that...looking not only to my interests...but to others as well. How can I help further this person's goals? How can I make them feel like family? How can I be more loving? etc. We'll see how this goes. I'm an ever imperfect work in progress :)
Monday, June 28, 2010
just a thought
I'm really...NOT looking forward to running tomorrow. I'm such a morning workout person...it'll be hard to go after work for the run. However, I'm gonna do it. Side note...I tracked all my food today. Broke down during snack and not only had half a muffin, 3 oreos, and a handful of chips, but I also had half a serving of kraft macaroni and cheese! 700 calories in one snack. Good thing I ate light for lunch...and unfortunately I was forced to do the same for dinner. I did stay within my range though. And, made cucumber salad for lunch tomorrow. Yum-o! Oh yea, and I'm pretty sure I've never sweat so hard doing DDR before. Maybe I have, but I really...noticed it today. Okie dokie, gonna read my book, then hop into bed. I have some non-workout stuff to do in the morning so I need to do lights off by 10. Sigh. Night.
weigh in!
Weighed in today...the result was 222. Eesh! The good news is, is that I didn't gain more than 2 lbs the past couple of months. Bad news is, I out of the teens. Waaaaaaah. So if I want to reach my lofty goal, I have to lose 23 lbs. Daunting. Alright. Let's get the party started.
Never Say "I blew it"
I, am very excited that I'm up and about at 7am. My alarm went off and as I went to press snooze, I realized that wasn't even that tired. I went to be at 11am, but my body decided that it wanted to go on a coughing jag so I'm pretty sure I was up until 11:30 if not 12pm. But, here I am, awake, and ready to go. I'm also proud of myself that I remembered I needed to use my DDR, and instead of keeping my living room "in flux" (from moving stuff around...books, dvds, workout material, bookcases everywhere!), I got up and cleared the way so I could have a fresh, clean spot to work out in. Yay me.
So today that book talked about not saying "I blew it." Most people's mindset with this (including mine) is if I blew it a little, then I might as well "go for the gold." Oh, I already ate 3 cookies...might as well make it a la mode! Instead of having "minor slipup" you end up gorging yourself and consequently feeling like crap-ola. The book said instead of saying "I blew it" and creating a huge event out of your mistake, chalk it up to something small. Like, "oh crap, I ate three cookies. Gotta track it and get over it." Or, the phrase they used was "Isn't that interesting? I wonder what that was all about." Then you actually figure out why you went with eating the 3 cookies. Stressful day at work? "After you see what's behind your eating pattern, you can focus on taking care of those needs instead of reaching for food."
I do this alot, especially since I've been off the whole tracking/eating healthy thing. It's not like I'll gorge myself and feel sick, but I will take the "oh, might as well have whipped cream too...already eating ice cream" approach. When I was tracking, I had to think 30 times about getting that coffee frappachino, and you better believe that I was NOT getting whipped cream. I'm excited to literally "get back on track," and I hope it's just as successful as last time. We shall see.
"...being confident of this, that he who began a good work in your will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus...And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best..." Phil. 1:6,9-10a.
I like the thought that someone else has started the work, and that he is not giving up on me. It doesn't mean that I don't have to try or do anything, but it does mean that I have a partner in all this craziness...and that I'm not alone in the good or miserable times. The second part, is really a prayer for myself...the funny thing is that last night I prayed something similar--help me to love more, and help to figure out what the heck I need to do with my life. Except, of course the writers say it a lot more eloquently. I'm excited to see what happens next...and hopefully I'll be ready and aware to take it on.
So today that book talked about not saying "I blew it." Most people's mindset with this (including mine) is if I blew it a little, then I might as well "go for the gold." Oh, I already ate 3 cookies...might as well make it a la mode! Instead of having "minor slipup" you end up gorging yourself and consequently feeling like crap-ola. The book said instead of saying "I blew it" and creating a huge event out of your mistake, chalk it up to something small. Like, "oh crap, I ate three cookies. Gotta track it and get over it." Or, the phrase they used was "Isn't that interesting? I wonder what that was all about." Then you actually figure out why you went with eating the 3 cookies. Stressful day at work? "After you see what's behind your eating pattern, you can focus on taking care of those needs instead of reaching for food."
I do this alot, especially since I've been off the whole tracking/eating healthy thing. It's not like I'll gorge myself and feel sick, but I will take the "oh, might as well have whipped cream too...already eating ice cream" approach. When I was tracking, I had to think 30 times about getting that coffee frappachino, and you better believe that I was NOT getting whipped cream. I'm excited to literally "get back on track," and I hope it's just as successful as last time. We shall see.
"...being confident of this, that he who began a good work in your will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus...And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best..." Phil. 1:6,9-10a.
I like the thought that someone else has started the work, and that he is not giving up on me. It doesn't mean that I don't have to try or do anything, but it does mean that I have a partner in all this craziness...and that I'm not alone in the good or miserable times. The second part, is really a prayer for myself...the funny thing is that last night I prayed something similar--help me to love more, and help to figure out what the heck I need to do with my life. Except, of course the writers say it a lot more eloquently. I'm excited to see what happens next...and hopefully I'll be ready and aware to take it on.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Excited :)
Tomorrow I'm going to start my routine all over again. I'm super excited to get back to focusing on me. There's been a lot of craziness going on around me, and I just want to step back from all the drama, and just...do me. I've been reading A LOT of books lately. I canceled my cable awhile ago, and I've been staying away from the internet long enough to get some actual brain to paper time :) It's been really enjoyable. I recently finished the book "Nappily Ever After" by Trisha Thomas and it was an easy read...and I actually identified a lot with it.
So, today, I'm going to focus on getting my house in order. Cause I know that I do not function well in a messy house...and considering that it's generally messy all the time...well..haha. I've been sick with a godawful cold since Wednesday, and I'm just now feeling that my nose is going to stop being simultaneously stuffed up and running (don't you hate it when it's BOTH?!?) My ear was so plugged up, that I couldn't even hear my loud bathroom fan running. Pretty sad eh? All unhappiness about being sick aside, I'm just glad it's not stomach or anxiety related. I'd rather have a cold any day that have that.
Anyway back to what I was saying. I'm going to clean my apartment, then I'm going to clean THE apartments--sweep, mop, vacuum, wipe down...all the lovely stuff. Then, I'm going to settle in with a new book...not sure what but I'm excited...and I'm going to sleep for at least 8 hours...if not 10 :)
Tomorrow is a new day, fresh, with no mistakes in it. Tomorrow, is the restart of my adventure. I lost almost 30lbs the last time I started on this adventure 6 months ago and I've ready to start losing again. Back to the basics with tracking my calories (blah), weighing in (ugh), exercising (yay?), and focusing on me. Yes. I've mentioned these goals before, but I want to be able to run a whole 5k by the start of the new school year (Sept 8th?) for those of you who are counting. Annnnnnnd--I want to be under 200. I haven't weighed myself in about a week or so, so we'll see if that amounts to 20 or 25lbs. I know I've gained a bit of weight with all the traveling and such, so we'll see what the damage is.
Ten weeks is what I have. And, to be honest, 25lbs in 10 weeks is a lot. So, I'm not going to sweat it if I don't reach that goal, but at the minimum, I want to be in the 20-'s. If that makes sense. Out of the teens :) If I can make it there, I will be a happy girl. But you all know how I like lofty goals!
Here's the plan to reach both goals:
Exercise--
M,W,F work out with my DDR/home video in the morning. Bust out 30 minutes of work out time.
T,R,S start the Couch to 5k program with week one. Do this after work, at the handy dandy lil track near Greenlake.
Sunday...the Sabbath. No working out...I'm keeping it holy ;)
Eating--
Eating out 1-3 times a week. Tops. And I mean it! I can eat out for lunch once a week, and can do dinner up to 2 times during the week. No mas.
Bringing lunch to the Club 4/5 days a week.
Cooking my own meals during the week. This can include sandwich making or eating pepperoni and carrots (a weird combination I know but I love it). Doesn't have to be a full scale meal, I just need to eat the food that I buy from the grocery store 5/7 days a week. At least.
Tracking, tracking, tracking. I need to get back on track with tracking my calories. A little cookie here, a couple of chips there, and I've gone over my calories. I'm getting back to tracking now.
Personal--Take a Class, find a book club, get more involved in a church, volunteer, restart game nights...
The possibilities are endless. I just want to do something that is stimulating and that I have fun with. I'm not picky (unless it's spending the night at a club or wasting money on booze...then no thank you), I just want to have a fun, sun filled, wonderfully fresh summer.
So that's the plan people. And...I need your help. I need your help to stay motivated and to keep up with my goals. I am a pretty self-motivated person, but I need people, and I would love to have your support :)
So, today, I'm going to focus on getting my house in order. Cause I know that I do not function well in a messy house...and considering that it's generally messy all the time...well..haha. I've been sick with a godawful cold since Wednesday, and I'm just now feeling that my nose is going to stop being simultaneously stuffed up and running (don't you hate it when it's BOTH?!?) My ear was so plugged up, that I couldn't even hear my loud bathroom fan running. Pretty sad eh? All unhappiness about being sick aside, I'm just glad it's not stomach or anxiety related. I'd rather have a cold any day that have that.
Anyway back to what I was saying. I'm going to clean my apartment, then I'm going to clean THE apartments--sweep, mop, vacuum, wipe down...all the lovely stuff. Then, I'm going to settle in with a new book...not sure what but I'm excited...and I'm going to sleep for at least 8 hours...if not 10 :)
Tomorrow is a new day, fresh, with no mistakes in it. Tomorrow, is the restart of my adventure. I lost almost 30lbs the last time I started on this adventure 6 months ago and I've ready to start losing again. Back to the basics with tracking my calories (blah), weighing in (ugh), exercising (yay?), and focusing on me. Yes. I've mentioned these goals before, but I want to be able to run a whole 5k by the start of the new school year (Sept 8th?) for those of you who are counting. Annnnnnnd--I want to be under 200. I haven't weighed myself in about a week or so, so we'll see if that amounts to 20 or 25lbs. I know I've gained a bit of weight with all the traveling and such, so we'll see what the damage is.
Ten weeks is what I have. And, to be honest, 25lbs in 10 weeks is a lot. So, I'm not going to sweat it if I don't reach that goal, but at the minimum, I want to be in the 20-'s. If that makes sense. Out of the teens :) If I can make it there, I will be a happy girl. But you all know how I like lofty goals!
Here's the plan to reach both goals:
Exercise--
M,W,F work out with my DDR/home video in the morning. Bust out 30 minutes of work out time.
T,R,S start the Couch to 5k program with week one. Do this after work, at the handy dandy lil track near Greenlake.
Sunday...the Sabbath. No working out...I'm keeping it holy ;)
Eating--
Eating out 1-3 times a week. Tops. And I mean it! I can eat out for lunch once a week, and can do dinner up to 2 times during the week. No mas.
Bringing lunch to the Club 4/5 days a week.
Cooking my own meals during the week. This can include sandwich making or eating pepperoni and carrots (a weird combination I know but I love it). Doesn't have to be a full scale meal, I just need to eat the food that I buy from the grocery store 5/7 days a week. At least.
Tracking, tracking, tracking. I need to get back on track with tracking my calories. A little cookie here, a couple of chips there, and I've gone over my calories. I'm getting back to tracking now.
Personal--Take a Class, find a book club, get more involved in a church, volunteer, restart game nights...
The possibilities are endless. I just want to do something that is stimulating and that I have fun with. I'm not picky (unless it's spending the night at a club or wasting money on booze...then no thank you), I just want to have a fun, sun filled, wonderfully fresh summer.
So that's the plan people. And...I need your help. I need your help to stay motivated and to keep up with my goals. I am a pretty self-motivated person, but I need people, and I would love to have your support :)
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