I know I'm not the only girl who compulsively weighs herself. I didn't do it so much when I wasn't trying to lose weight--no need to be unnecessarily depressed during a normal day right? But now that I'm losing weight, I weigh myself everyday. And not just once I day. I do it in the morning and in the evening. When I'm home at lunch time, I do it then. When I'm home in the afternoons...I'll step on just to see. I've learned to acknowledge my weight fluctuations as normal.
However, nothing tickles me more than when I weigh myself after I pee or poop. Seriously. Whenever I have to go, I quickly weigh myself (as I usually wait till the last minute so I'm dancing and trying my hardest to stay still). I do it twice just to make sure, then I unleash my bodily fluids...and not so fluids. Haha. Afterwards, I don't even flush. I go directly to the scale and lo and behold, half a pound, 1 pound, one time after pooing for the first time in 3 days, I weighed 2 lbs less! Now I always think if I haven't pooped I should be 2 lbs less haha. Anyway, I wanted to post that on facebook but I thought it might be tmi. So I decided I would post it here.
Love it!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Eating because it's there
Snacks at work. Samples at safeway. Candy dishes. These are all things that cause us to eat excess calories. "In all of these situations, you probably weren't hungry. You also weren't having any big psychological needs. You simply ate because the food was there." The chapter today talked about resiting foods like that.
This is one that I've had to train myself with, especially when I was working behind the front desk. People bring food, you taste a bit of it. There's the kids snack...you try a sample. There's a board meeting...they leave the leftovers. In all these cases I would eat some (or a lot) of things that were brought because I didn't want to miss out on all the yummy things.
With my new plan, I've been resisting indulging in these things, combating them one, with my own snacks, and two, with just being plain busy! I'm proud that I don't ask the kids for a taste of the snacks they bring like a "tax" haha. Totally used to do that. Be like "ey! what's that?" haha. I'm glad I don't snack on pretzels and mamu anymore just b/c it's there. There have been cookies in the kitchen that I have resisted with a passion...after seeing their calorie count...shout out to Bec who had this same experience too...It's just cool to see the changes and CONSCIOUS choices that I'm making to be committed....not just interested :)
I have no idea why I got up at 6am today. Oh yea, I was dreaming about work and then had an IDEA for work that I didn't want to forget so I was consciously trying to remember and then decided to wake and dick around on the internet. So here I am almost finished with my morning reading before 7:30. Wtf? Ok, 1 Peter is the pick of the day.
"Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: 'Be holy, because I am holy.'" 1 Peter 1:13-15
So, this message was a bit convicting for me as my conversation with a certain friend last night about ahem...certain morning activities made my mind wander this morning. You know who you are! Sometimes it's so hard to say no to temptation and to holiness, especially when you've experienced things outside the bounds of holiness. But I like this reminder and call to action, self-control, and obedience. These are the times, when I really want to do other than what I'm supposed to, that it is most imperative to stay the course and be self controlled.
Because, in all honesty, I know that if I do it, I'll be like that verse in Romans that says something like "i do what I do not want to do, and do...blah blah." There's a lot of "do's" in that verse but it basically says you sin, even though you know not to sin, you can't help yourself almost because you've given yourself over to that nature. And that, is not where I want to live...as a slave to sin. So. I will strive to be self controlled and "holy" because of the grace given to me and because I'm trying to model myself after the father. Lord, give me strength :D
This is one that I've had to train myself with, especially when I was working behind the front desk. People bring food, you taste a bit of it. There's the kids snack...you try a sample. There's a board meeting...they leave the leftovers. In all these cases I would eat some (or a lot) of things that were brought because I didn't want to miss out on all the yummy things.
With my new plan, I've been resisting indulging in these things, combating them one, with my own snacks, and two, with just being plain busy! I'm proud that I don't ask the kids for a taste of the snacks they bring like a "tax" haha. Totally used to do that. Be like "ey! what's that?" haha. I'm glad I don't snack on pretzels and mamu anymore just b/c it's there. There have been cookies in the kitchen that I have resisted with a passion...after seeing their calorie count...shout out to Bec who had this same experience too...It's just cool to see the changes and CONSCIOUS choices that I'm making to be committed....not just interested :)
I have no idea why I got up at 6am today. Oh yea, I was dreaming about work and then had an IDEA for work that I didn't want to forget so I was consciously trying to remember and then decided to wake and dick around on the internet. So here I am almost finished with my morning reading before 7:30. Wtf? Ok, 1 Peter is the pick of the day.
"Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: 'Be holy, because I am holy.'" 1 Peter 1:13-15
So, this message was a bit convicting for me as my conversation with a certain friend last night about ahem...certain morning activities made my mind wander this morning. You know who you are! Sometimes it's so hard to say no to temptation and to holiness, especially when you've experienced things outside the bounds of holiness. But I like this reminder and call to action, self-control, and obedience. These are the times, when I really want to do other than what I'm supposed to, that it is most imperative to stay the course and be self controlled.
Because, in all honesty, I know that if I do it, I'll be like that verse in Romans that says something like "i do what I do not want to do, and do...blah blah." There's a lot of "do's" in that verse but it basically says you sin, even though you know not to sin, you can't help yourself almost because you've given yourself over to that nature. And that, is not where I want to live...as a slave to sin. So. I will strive to be self controlled and "holy" because of the grace given to me and because I'm trying to model myself after the father. Lord, give me strength :D
Monday, February 1, 2010
Eat dessert when its special
Today the book talked about how tempting desserts can be for people. I'm one of those people who DEFINITELY have a sweet tooth. My favorites are my mom's brownies, the fluffy cheesecake my mom made for my bday, apple crisp with ice cream on top, and cheesecake factory strawberry cheesecake.
The book said that in order to get in control of your temptations, decide to eat desserts only on special occasions. And special occasions "include not just the food itself, but also the setting and the people you're with." So instead of eating apple crisp as a dessert when I go out for lunch with coworkers, or have a random dinner, I should eat it maybe when I'm on a date, or celebrating a birthday. And even then, half it :) My mom's brownies I can eat when she makes them...cause we'll those are special occasions ie she doesn't make them unless I ask :) Well, not true. Sometimes she makes them for parties. And cheesecake. I like only fluffy light kinds so that makes it a bit easier for me. If I go to the cheesecake factory for something super special, I will indulge. If it's for a plain dinner or lunch...no cheesecake for me. Maybe a bite of someone else's :)
It says to make a list of events that are special enough, and my thing is that I can't really think of one, but I know that when it comes up, I'll know what it is. I'll weigh it, and decide whether dessert is worth it. Like last night the waiter brought us a dessert menu and one, the desserts were all frou frou, but two, I was happily content with my peach cider which was sweet and dessert like. Before, I wouldn't have thought of my drink as a dessert, but now, my mind is slowly shifting and I'm understanding and appreciating flavors, tastes, and other qualities of food and drink...and how to not overindulge :)
So I decided to bust out Romans 15 AND 16 that I could be finished with the book. Phew. It was a good book, and I learned and relearned a lot, but it can get dense and wordy sometimes :)
"Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God...May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:7,13
I liked the emphasis of loving, accepting, forgiving, etc. others just as Christ did for us. I think it plays on our idea of fairness. Because it was done for us, we should feel compelled to do it for others. The scale to which it was done for us is so large. I mean, forgiveness from Christ and his death, that's huge. How can we not try to accept and love others in smaller ways? I put the second verse because God has definitely filled me with joy and peace because I've been trusting him more. And this letter to the Romans has helped me trust and understand who he is more. I specifically remember times of joy, peace, and hope while reading. I'm so thankful that I can read this freely. God is good.
The book said that in order to get in control of your temptations, decide to eat desserts only on special occasions. And special occasions "include not just the food itself, but also the setting and the people you're with." So instead of eating apple crisp as a dessert when I go out for lunch with coworkers, or have a random dinner, I should eat it maybe when I'm on a date, or celebrating a birthday. And even then, half it :) My mom's brownies I can eat when she makes them...cause we'll those are special occasions ie she doesn't make them unless I ask :) Well, not true. Sometimes she makes them for parties. And cheesecake. I like only fluffy light kinds so that makes it a bit easier for me. If I go to the cheesecake factory for something super special, I will indulge. If it's for a plain dinner or lunch...no cheesecake for me. Maybe a bite of someone else's :)
It says to make a list of events that are special enough, and my thing is that I can't really think of one, but I know that when it comes up, I'll know what it is. I'll weigh it, and decide whether dessert is worth it. Like last night the waiter brought us a dessert menu and one, the desserts were all frou frou, but two, I was happily content with my peach cider which was sweet and dessert like. Before, I wouldn't have thought of my drink as a dessert, but now, my mind is slowly shifting and I'm understanding and appreciating flavors, tastes, and other qualities of food and drink...and how to not overindulge :)
So I decided to bust out Romans 15 AND 16 that I could be finished with the book. Phew. It was a good book, and I learned and relearned a lot, but it can get dense and wordy sometimes :)
"Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God...May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:7,13
I liked the emphasis of loving, accepting, forgiving, etc. others just as Christ did for us. I think it plays on our idea of fairness. Because it was done for us, we should feel compelled to do it for others. The scale to which it was done for us is so large. I mean, forgiveness from Christ and his death, that's huge. How can we not try to accept and love others in smaller ways? I put the second verse because God has definitely filled me with joy and peace because I've been trusting him more. And this letter to the Romans has helped me trust and understand who he is more. I specifically remember times of joy, peace, and hope while reading. I'm so thankful that I can read this freely. God is good.
Weigh In
So, I've been feeling meh this morning and really did not want to weigh myself. I did, after all, eat fish and chips and although my nutrition tracker was telling me it was fine, I had a touchy feeling last night. My tummy has also been feeling bloated and weird too. Still on the period which is...lovely. :)
Anyway, all that I say that I jumped on the scale and....233.2. I lost 3 lbs! Yaaaaaay. I'm definitely happy, but for some reason I'm not jump up and down happy. I dunno, I guess I'm just relieved. So I started this adventure at 246.6. I'm now at 233.2. That's 13.4 lbs. I've almost lost 15 lbs! So awesome. I believe that that means I've lost 5.3% of my weight so I'm a little over halfway to losing 10% of my weight which is essentially 25 lbs.
I am so proud of myself. My feeling right now are..happiness, but also kind of mellowness because I know how far I have to go. It's not like I'm down, just...ready to keep going and lose more. I really wish that it would come off quicker, my muscles would develop, and I'd be lean with no saggy skin asap. But, I know that's not how it happens. I wanted to "cheat" and weigh in after my work out, but I wanted it to really count. I feel like if I cheat even a little, it's cheating me out of true victory. If I fudge it, it doesn't seem like a real win. So. 3 lbs. 3 lbs....good job Tiffany!
Anyway, all that I say that I jumped on the scale and....233.2. I lost 3 lbs! Yaaaaaay. I'm definitely happy, but for some reason I'm not jump up and down happy. I dunno, I guess I'm just relieved. So I started this adventure at 246.6. I'm now at 233.2. That's 13.4 lbs. I've almost lost 15 lbs! So awesome. I believe that that means I've lost 5.3% of my weight so I'm a little over halfway to losing 10% of my weight which is essentially 25 lbs.
I am so proud of myself. My feeling right now are..happiness, but also kind of mellowness because I know how far I have to go. It's not like I'm down, just...ready to keep going and lose more. I really wish that it would come off quicker, my muscles would develop, and I'd be lean with no saggy skin asap. But, I know that's not how it happens. I wanted to "cheat" and weigh in after my work out, but I wanted it to really count. I feel like if I cheat even a little, it's cheating me out of true victory. If I fudge it, it doesn't seem like a real win. So. 3 lbs. 3 lbs....good job Tiffany!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
And another thing
I ate fish and chips for dinner tonight! Probably the greasiest thing...besides pizza that I've eaten in awhile. It was good, but it wasn't that great. I didn't eat a lot of crap earlier today, so I'm still within all my limits as far as calories, carbs, and fat. I love how I can eat what I want and still lose weight. I love that my healthy lifestyle doesn't contradict my social lifestyle.
I'm going to work out now though :) I haven't done my work out for the day (although I did walk quite a bit). Speaking of walking, I walked up about 3 blocks of hills and downtown and wasn't winded! It was such a great feeling :) Anyway, I feel ready to go. Peace out!
Oh, and another thing. I went grocery shopping today, and the only "processed" food that I got was my mousse temptations. Everything else was meat, fruits, and veggies. Well and also milk and sour cream. Can you believe that? I can hardly believe it! It's awesome and I'm super stoked on how my habits are changing. Plus I've been thinking about cooking brussels sprouts--but have been too chicken to do so--but my bff told me she was branching out and doing them so I decided to do so as well. Annnnnnnd. I'm super excited to try them. There was a recipe I saw that had BACON in it. sigh. Sounds so bomb. God is good.
I'm going to work out now though :) I haven't done my work out for the day (although I did walk quite a bit). Speaking of walking, I walked up about 3 blocks of hills and downtown and wasn't winded! It was such a great feeling :) Anyway, I feel ready to go. Peace out!
Oh, and another thing. I went grocery shopping today, and the only "processed" food that I got was my mousse temptations. Everything else was meat, fruits, and veggies. Well and also milk and sour cream. Can you believe that? I can hardly believe it! It's awesome and I'm super stoked on how my habits are changing. Plus I've been thinking about cooking brussels sprouts--but have been too chicken to do so--but my bff told me she was branching out and doing them so I decided to do so as well. Annnnnnnd. I'm super excited to try them. There was a recipe I saw that had BACON in it. sigh. Sounds so bomb. God is good.
:)
I had such a great time with small group tonight. It's definitely been an added bonus to my life. I'm so glad looking back that I made that goal, and am following through with it. The more we hang out, the more that I am sure that I like these people, and I think they like me as well. Conversation is easy and fun, and they seem to like a lot of the same things I do.
I like Lindsay because she is great at trying to generate conversation and learn more about people. And once she's comfortable, she doesn't mind saying how she feels. I like Angela because she's sweet and down to earth, and she is easy to talk to. I like Matt because he's quiet, but super funny. I like how he takes care of Lindsay and I like seeing his looser style and easy smile. I like Ben because he is silly, completely random at times and has a way of disarming people that's cool. I like Steve because of his dry and quick humor and ability to laugh at himself. I love Martha because she is thrifty and doesn't take any crap. She is comfortable in who she is and in her beliefs. I like Tos because I feel like he really feels people and really loves getting know people. He has a definite heart for people that relates to mine.
Every person in the group has qualities that make it fun to be around and make me feel comfortable. When we were together today, it was good. I'm excited for spending time and getting to know people more and more as the weeks and months go by.
I like Lindsay because she is great at trying to generate conversation and learn more about people. And once she's comfortable, she doesn't mind saying how she feels. I like Angela because she's sweet and down to earth, and she is easy to talk to. I like Matt because he's quiet, but super funny. I like how he takes care of Lindsay and I like seeing his looser style and easy smile. I like Ben because he is silly, completely random at times and has a way of disarming people that's cool. I like Steve because of his dry and quick humor and ability to laugh at himself. I love Martha because she is thrifty and doesn't take any crap. She is comfortable in who she is and in her beliefs. I like Tos because I feel like he really feels people and really loves getting know people. He has a definite heart for people that relates to mine.
Every person in the group has qualities that make it fun to be around and make me feel comfortable. When we were together today, it was good. I'm excited for spending time and getting to know people more and more as the weeks and months go by.
When Food Disappoints You
Today the book talked about anticipating a certain food, eating it, and realizing it wasn't the taste, texture, flavor, etc. that you wanted it to be. But, you continue eating it to see if it maybe will change and become better. After the whole experience, you feel disappointed. They used chocolate cake as an example, and if I had eaten an entire piece of chocolate cake and was still disappointed, I would actually be bitter at the amount of calories I had invested in that damn thing as well.
The moral of the story is, if you don't like something, don't continue to eat it--and I think its referring especially to foods that your eating as a bonus or special foods. But I guess it could be talking about regular food too. Now that I think about it, I don't really eat foods that I don't enjoy. I don't force foods on myself that I know I don't like...oh except oatmeal haha. The thing is, a lot of the foods that I "don't like" or don't think I like actually become foods that I enjoy.
Like my wheat bread. Didn't really like it at first, now, I'm ok with it. I enjoy my sandwiches and don't miss the white bread too much.
I liked this quote: "Perhaps you think that wanting your favorite food seems 'bad,' so you force yourself to eat something you don't like."
I think a lot of people struggle with that. I know I've struggled with that in past diets. You think the very thing you want and the fact that you want it is bad so you end up eating plain asparagus or broccoli, or something that doesn't taste very good without any good flavors. Before I'd just assume I couldn't have a certain food, instead of looking up recipes, looking at calories and fat content, and seeing if I could still have it but in a different way or adjusted somehow. Wanting fatty food isn't bad. We all want food that's bad for us. We just need to have it in the right portions, and not all the time. And if you can find a lower calorie solution, even more perfect.
"Accept him whose faith is weak, without passing judgment on disputable matters. One man's faith allows him to eat everything, but another man, whose faith is weak, eats only vegetables. The man who eats everything must not look down on him who does not, and the man who does not eat everything must not condemn who does, for GOd has accepted him. Who are you to judge someone else's servant? To his own master he stands or falls. And he will stand for the Lord is able to make him stand...If your brother is distressed because of what you eat, you are no longer acting in love. Do not by your eating destroy your brother for whom Christ died. Do not allow what you consider good to be spoken of as evil. For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and approved by men. Let us therefore make every effort to do what leads to peace and mutual edification." Romans 14:1-4, 15-19
It's hard for me, when I think of someone as "weak" (as described in the passage) to not see them as..."worse." That word "weak" holds negative implications in mind mind. I would never like to be considered that. However, I think that's exactly the type of mindset that Paul is trying to discourage. It's not an us vs. them thing. It's a we're all in this together thing. I try to think of it not as "weak" but as someone who's in a different part of their walk, and is trying to figure out the God stuff too. Who am I to "look down upon" someone who is following God and trying to look to him in his journey? God has different paths for all of us and speaks different passions into our hearts. It's not my place to look at someone with derision, but to look at them and appreciate where they are.
I like that it emphasizes that it's the responsibility of those stronger in faith to submit to the ideals of those weaker in faith. That that, is love. Not parading our freedoms in front of people who would be appalled by them. I am many times guilty of doing this to my more conservative counterparts...flaunting my freedom and knowing that they're probably gasping and all abuzz at my sinfulness. I think that at some points, you just need to be yourself. At most points, if it's going to cause someone to stumble. If it's going to cause them to doubt their faith and doubt God, then I need to cool it down. Causing someone to stumble in their faith is a high price to pay for me wanting to flaunt my freedoms. It's actually not worth it. I don't want to cause people pain, and I don't want them to doubt what God has done and spoken to them because of my insensitivity. We have a responsibility to each other. And that means to act in love...even if it means I have to say no to some of the things I might do otherwise...mmmm good word.
The moral of the story is, if you don't like something, don't continue to eat it--and I think its referring especially to foods that your eating as a bonus or special foods. But I guess it could be talking about regular food too. Now that I think about it, I don't really eat foods that I don't enjoy. I don't force foods on myself that I know I don't like...oh except oatmeal haha. The thing is, a lot of the foods that I "don't like" or don't think I like actually become foods that I enjoy.
Like my wheat bread. Didn't really like it at first, now, I'm ok with it. I enjoy my sandwiches and don't miss the white bread too much.
I liked this quote: "Perhaps you think that wanting your favorite food seems 'bad,' so you force yourself to eat something you don't like."
I think a lot of people struggle with that. I know I've struggled with that in past diets. You think the very thing you want and the fact that you want it is bad so you end up eating plain asparagus or broccoli, or something that doesn't taste very good without any good flavors. Before I'd just assume I couldn't have a certain food, instead of looking up recipes, looking at calories and fat content, and seeing if I could still have it but in a different way or adjusted somehow. Wanting fatty food isn't bad. We all want food that's bad for us. We just need to have it in the right portions, and not all the time. And if you can find a lower calorie solution, even more perfect.
"Accept him whose faith is weak, without passing judgment on disputable matters. One man's faith allows him to eat everything, but another man, whose faith is weak, eats only vegetables. The man who eats everything must not look down on him who does not, and the man who does not eat everything must not condemn who does, for GOd has accepted him. Who are you to judge someone else's servant? To his own master he stands or falls. And he will stand for the Lord is able to make him stand...If your brother is distressed because of what you eat, you are no longer acting in love. Do not by your eating destroy your brother for whom Christ died. Do not allow what you consider good to be spoken of as evil. For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit, because anyone who serves Christ in this way is pleasing to God and approved by men. Let us therefore make every effort to do what leads to peace and mutual edification." Romans 14:1-4, 15-19
It's hard for me, when I think of someone as "weak" (as described in the passage) to not see them as..."worse." That word "weak" holds negative implications in mind mind. I would never like to be considered that. However, I think that's exactly the type of mindset that Paul is trying to discourage. It's not an us vs. them thing. It's a we're all in this together thing. I try to think of it not as "weak" but as someone who's in a different part of their walk, and is trying to figure out the God stuff too. Who am I to "look down upon" someone who is following God and trying to look to him in his journey? God has different paths for all of us and speaks different passions into our hearts. It's not my place to look at someone with derision, but to look at them and appreciate where they are.
I like that it emphasizes that it's the responsibility of those stronger in faith to submit to the ideals of those weaker in faith. That that, is love. Not parading our freedoms in front of people who would be appalled by them. I am many times guilty of doing this to my more conservative counterparts...flaunting my freedom and knowing that they're probably gasping and all abuzz at my sinfulness. I think that at some points, you just need to be yourself. At most points, if it's going to cause someone to stumble. If it's going to cause them to doubt their faith and doubt God, then I need to cool it down. Causing someone to stumble in their faith is a high price to pay for me wanting to flaunt my freedoms. It's actually not worth it. I don't want to cause people pain, and I don't want them to doubt what God has done and spoken to them because of my insensitivity. We have a responsibility to each other. And that means to act in love...even if it means I have to say no to some of the things I might do otherwise...mmmm good word.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)